I remember when I was 25 and my dad turned 50…Wow, I thought, such an amazing thing to have reached this age and stage in his life; only a few more years to go before retirement and a life of relaxation and time well-spent travelling to places he & mum wanted to visit, for pleasure not for business; doing things around the house, hounded by the demands and lists of the wife; spending time hanging out, giggling and being silly with the grandson; maybe some golf but definitely some slower paced but just as competitive hockey…Who could have guessed it would never come to pass…

And here I am @50, at the same milestone birthday…and I think how different my future path looks from what could have been just like Dad’s had I continued my career in teaching…

@50

Should I have my life sorted, working towards the end of a stable career, putting money away like a squirrel’s stash for winter, be readying myself for the arrival of grandchildren? That is certainly not the case, although the grandchildren may be closer than I like and I may have to prepare myself sooner than later for their arrival.

@50

Feeling the same on the inside as I have since maybe I was 35, that feeling of knowing who I am, what I like but with more acceptance and self-love and longing for adventure, wrapped around by the love and generosity of a man like I have never had before; so grateful for my life…

 

@50

A beautiful birthday gift from my number one man that made me cry with the sentimentality of it all.

@50

A hoped-for but not expected unsolicited birthday text from number one son made me cry with the thought that maybe there is still a little space in his heart for me.

@50

A major splurge for this major life hurdle celebrating in a town that caters for all the things we enjoy, great wine and good food, Margaret River, with 15 friends from all stages of my life from primary school to now, including two special people who flew from Mauritius as a surprise; surrounded by laughter and love, so many memories to add to my mental collection.

@50

Now here I am, ready for an exciting new change with a new business venture, planning for making a change to education and maybe a recognised contribution to the world of academia, spending time with the one person that truly gets me.

 

Who said it’s all downhill from here??